Friday, May 26, 2006
recieving news i never wanted to know from someone else hasnt been easy
do u know?
the pain,hurt,loss,longing,memory,good old times and all the tears i shed
i wanna do away with all that
i made too many wrong choices the past 1yr
i hate livin with so many regrets
i hate that u make me regret knowin u the past few wks
i hate that u make me regret tellin u everythin
i hate that u made me become who i am nw
i hate that fear u created in me
i hate that u make me think bad thoughts,
things that i never wanna do with my life
i hate missin you by my side
i hate how im standin behind u lookin on and hopin
i hate that u were a part of my life once
i hate how u share and are in parts of my memories
i hate how u make me wanna hate u for the rest of my life
i hate how everythin reminds me of u
i hate how my tears fall because of u
i hate livin the way i do nw
i hate how i ignore the lil pleas to give up and get a hold on myself at the back of my head everyday
i hate myself
i guess ive been livin in delusion for too long a time
its time to wake up lalee
will i really be fine if i keep tellin myself that?
laleeee ;
x 12:36 AM
